From [Benjamin Seward, see note below] at Badsey to [William Seward]. He was grateful for the kind letter sent to Brother Edward. As for the query within it concerning the 'new birth', Benjamin cannot say that he is able to claim that state to any 'tolerable degree'. He is very aware that his heart remains 'deceitful on the weight and lighter than vanity itself'. He despairs of salvation, either by his own works or his righteousness. He has reason to be despondent, as God knows that, not only from Benjamin’s original sin but from his many actual committed sins, that he has nothing to fall back upon but divine pardon. He has run with the wicked and 'sat in the seat of the scornful'. He prays that he may be cleansed of his many secret faults and that evil will not be allowed to dwell in his heart.
His dear wife went with him to the society meeting last Sunday night and is very good at 'hearing and instructing my children at home. I am very glad to hear Miss Gracy is happily instructing, and thank you for your good wishes, of having your nieces there with her, but hope God will give us grace to set up the Kingdom of Jesus Christ in our own family...' Spiritual matters are further discussed in great detail.
When William mentioned [George] Whitefield’s visiting Badsey, Benjamin 'had no great notion of it, but was rather against it. I thought him in some points an enthusiast and that he made religion a heavier burden than it is, but believe it was my own corruption that could not bear the test of his purity, and I bless God I now being to be really of Mr [William] Law’s opinion [see note below], that if we would be Christ’s disciples, we must forsake all in affection and follow him, tho I could wish some few amendments were made in his books, that the most captious worldling might have no room for censure. I have not read them through, they being now with Mr Rollins, but design to do it soon, and I hope with a resolution to make the most favourable allowances and constructions, on what I believe was wrote with a pious design.'
Benjamin has lately read [John Bunyan’s] Pilgrim’s Progress, which he has often heard ridiculed, but without being aware of the fact that there are many pearls contained within such 'an obsolete and unfashionable stone house'.
Mr Henry is a very valuable writer '& notwithstanding some small differences in opinion as to ceremony, I verily think all true Christians are in perfect unity, as to all essentials & that if the lives of our ministers were as exemplary as Mr [George] Whitefield’s, we should soon become one fold under one shepherd...'
Their society here is flourishing a great deal. It is a 'very fruitful soil in temporal blessings. O that it may rightfully improve them to their spiritual advantage.' Benjamin intends when they go to settle at Bengeworth to establish societies there and at Evesham. He trusts that Whitefield’s preaching there will assist in that process 'for I am very unduly qualified to set about such a work...' They would be very pleased to be informed of William’s progress from time to time.
Benjamin had not heard of the Welsh clergymen who William referred to [Probably a reference to either Daniel Rowland (1711-1790) or Griffith Jones (1684-1761)]. What are their ages? where do they mainly live? and have they any 'considerable preferment'?
William should pass on his friendly regards to Whitefield. He wishes they were at home so that they could have a house at Bengeworth as well as here to entertain William and his associates. Spiritual matters are discussed.
Dear mother is pretty cheerful today. She sends her blessings.